Gifts
Sunday, May 21, 2017 @ 5:50 PM
I got flowers last night. Always happy to receive them. But in that split second, a smidge of not-so-good thought entered my mind. Did he do something wrong? Are these apology flowers? Did he cheat on me? Why?! Then I get a little bit too hysterical in my head. Fortunately before I could say and/or ask anything stupid and probably start a fight that shouldn't have happened anyway, I told myself to accept them, say thank you and appreciate it.
Sometimes it's hard to accept being treated nice. Probably the shit men I have dated. Or rather, the one before this. I've been led to believe that anything remotely good isn't what it seems, but rather a little "bribe" for something later. I have been taught by that to never think a gift could be just a gift. I'm more than glad that part of my life is over.
Not sure what I ever did to deserve you in my life right now, but I thank my lucky stars that we met, and you make me so happy and I just wanna squish the life out of you with all my love.