Height Issues and Deaf Sleeper
Thursday, September 2, 2010 @ 2:24 PM
The title says it all.
I can't freaking wear heels as and when I like. Sometimes, I get tired thinking about how the person(s) I'm going out with would feel if I turnup 10 cm taller than I already am. Everytime I put on a pair of heels before going out, I end up changing to a pair of flats before leaving. Sometimes I wear my heels, go to the bus stop, then come back home to change into a pair of flats before going out for real.
I don't dislike my natural height, I'm not mocking people shorter than I. I'm just sort of annoyed at why I can't wear heels. People can tell me: "Just wear it, doesn't matter what other think". I'm already 9cm taller than the average Singapore girl, with my heels I'll be like 19cm(!) taller. It would be awkward for them, surely, and it would be weird for us to talk when walking. I would have to bend, she/he would have to look up, imagine that!
I've this feeling that people are intimidated when they see me ~_~.
Also, I've noticed, people shorter than I am would -more often than not- look at me for the second time, and look down at my feet. Looking for the type of footwear? SLIPPERS PLEASE. Or maybe black flats. I have limited footwear choices with my insanely broad feet, that's why I love NewLook. But I can't afford their shoes, since I'm not working. Based on my meagre allowance, I can starve and buy those shoes, or buy those shoes and starve, you hear me?
What's with my ranting huh?
Height. It's just a number. It doesn't give you rise in the social circle, sure you have the advantage in two occupations in the world, but it doesn't really make a difference to me, does it? I'm not even interested. It's just a fucking number, I don't wish I were shorter, I just wish it would look awkward to be towering above them all. It's okay if I'm a guy, but I'm an XX-chromosome.
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The Deaf Sleeper.
Not literally in that sense, but somewhat. When I sleep, everything turns off, I'm almost deaf. I cannot awake without physical shaking. It's.....weird. I don't know. I've never been able to awake at a set time without someone physically shaking me. I would have to be touching the alarm clock when it rings, or the phone when it vibrates incessantly. And it's not just a small shake, it has to be substantial. Anyone out there with the same problem? Quit telling me to sleep early, it doesn't help, and I can't fall asleep early no matter the time I lie down. Stop being ridiculous. You think I don't dislike it when I oversleep and miss something important?