Tuesday, January 3, 2012
2012
So the past year, and through the many years back, I realised one thing. Okay I had MANY realisations but THIS is the one thing I wanna share:
You Can't Please Everyone
So, make sure you, YOURSELF are happy before trying to please others. It's like you can't love another without loving yourself. It more or less works the same way. This is probably why I may seem selfish to some people, in some circumstances. If it's little things that will please someone and does not adversely affect you, yes go ahead and please that person. But NO, NO NO NO when you will feel upset or anything slightly veering towards the negative end of the scale. Insert compromise here if necessary but it barely works out for me so I'm choosing to be selfish and think of my own happiness in front others'.
Then again, family and a select few friends are people you can NEVER say no too. That's for me though. I can't say no to my mum. I REALLY HATE bringing in the clothes but if she asks, I'll do it. I also REALLY HATE going downstairs from my bedroom just to open the door for my sister, but I still do it, even when she has the key. I can't say no to stupid requests made my Andy and neither can I reject a date with XinJie cause I love her too much. Don't really know what I've sidetracked to here, but the bottom line is to make sure you are happy, before wanting to make another happy. I believe that happiness spreads like a disease, just as laughter is sometimes contagious.
That aside, 2011 was really epic #boringfail. I probably wasted so much time and will regret all that one day. I can't be bothered to work, I can't be bothered to wake up in the mornings. I can't be bothered to attend most classes whenever possible and I really, really can't be bothered by the fact that my grades are barely up to my expectations but I'll leave all that to another day.
I live in a mess physically (bedroom) and mentally. In my head, life happens like a stock market. Unpredictable. Always changing. But I feel stuck. It's like everything is moving up forward on but me. Ever get that feeling? I'm like that most of the time. Especially so in Semester 2.2 cause my lessons are just..... ok I don't have a word for it. Too little seems under and too much is a huge overstatement.
My 2012 resolutions include the usual stuff like:
- I will be nicer to people, even those I dislike.
- I will be healthier.
- I will do my assignments ahead of schedule.
- I will study WAY before tests/exams. Hah!
- I will be a tidier person.
- I will not spend money like water.
- I will cherish what I have, and thrash what doesn't matter.
