I have to reply to KaiJie's sms otherwise he'll think I'm suicidal. Don't worry okay I'm okay see I'm still blogging. Stop slacking and do your work or you'll get fired sooner or later!

Stupid Kiko has stupid detention so I have to wait for her for god knows how long before she'll finally come and meet me and get the materials with me. I'm so bored. I'm a boring person.

I skipped school again today when just last night I promised 1001 people I'll be there.

Lunch was IKEA and I'm going to buy me a new shelf for my books which I have not wrapped and it's high time I started studying. I should take the initiative and call 施老师 later on.

Somebody unexpected just talked to me. Hahaha!

I took half an hour to think of what to blog about cause I'm blogging for the sake of doing nothing and and and and..

I'm screwed lah.

4 days


Bad mood !#$%^&*()_+

One minute we're okay and the next minute it's the cold shoulder. PMS is it? Irritating. Seriously, if that's the way it's gonna be, I'm just going to sink deeper. I hate you when you're like that. How can we communicate?

I fucking hate life.


Nag nag nag, scream scream scream.

I give up man. I give up, on everything.

Every single fucking thing.


YAY I'M WATCHING MOVIE TONIGHT HAHAHA. But I'm almost broke.

Up til then, I'm bored still. I shall bathe at 8 later. Then take my time to prepare and go out.

I really should get my ass to school. But I don't like to go to school lahxzs. Plus my results confirm is failfailfail one. To heck with setting more difficult papers to reach my potential. Just give me what's O level standard, and stop there.

Come on. I don't need to know what nots about the Human Developemnt Index and how forests survive. I need to know basic things about the world and people and the wars, etc. But I don't need all the information on the wars in other countries! Singapore and the different policies, I understand, but other countries and so much other information I doubt I will ever use, waste of time please!

Just like in ChenPei's blog:
Do you even think all the Triangles we learn in Maths we be applicable in future?
Don't tell me you would want to calculate the possibility of you getting a job in the future.

Seriously. And do I really need to know all the chemical equations and such for the future? It pretty much depends on which job I'm getting. And I'm sure I don't need it. Cause I have no idea what I want to do. Sounds so failure, but how can I, at only 16 years of age, know what I want to do in the future? How can I be sure that that job is what I want, and I will commit to it all my life? How long would I be able to keep that interest? I have a super short attention span, I'm sure. If I were to choose a Poly course, I'll be tired of it within the year.

Everyone and everything is demoralising me too. From home to school to, well, everywhere.

I will give up if I have to. Because I know I've given my best for this MYEs. This is my limit, probably not my full potential, but my highest limit. Push me any further and I'll jump.


I just saw MingWhee's personal message. Countdown, 10 more days.

Just shoot me.




Irritating, but entertaining. :)





I wonder why. Hahaha!

Yesterday, I thought over it. Today, I'm done. Yes. I'm done wishing, hoping, wanting, needing. No point. As I was typing that blog entry for her, my own memories flooded past. It's time to give up, let go. I've to be glad it happened, and not sorry that it ended. I believe that I gave my all, tried my best. And that's all that matters.

Didn't attend school for the past two days. Life is getting boring. I want that B4 for Chinese. Then I can put my heart at ease and not take it the second time. Of course, if I can get like A1 it's omfgxsz better but that's almost as possible as me waking up early.

Sidetracking a little.., I just received this on my MSN.
[c=14]iwlyttetteoe[/c] says:
i sexy girl u dumb boy
LOL

I'm so bored.


You know what. I'm such a fool. Urghxzs. 我又爱上他了。那时，有你。这次。。。

I'm having movie night with Andy tomorrow, I think. He's becoming such an ass. Everyone is becoming so no life. Maybe they just woke up, and are concentrating for the O levels. Whereas I'll just well, take th wrong path, become a failure I don't know, fail?

Come on Samantha, buck up already!

I misssssssssssssssssssss................................




This, is dinner. Minced meat and mushroom in butter and oil at the bottom, layered with cheese, followed by potatoes and milk and butter, and topped with cheese. I wonder what it tastes like. HAHAHHA.





And this is omfg handwriting -.-


Remember this?
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I don't know if I've mentioned it but I got two of these for my birthday! HAHAHHA.













My life is so boring, so mundane, so boring, so mudane O:



I finished watching Gossip Girl and it's the last episode wtfxzs. Can't wait for Season 3. Hahahahahha. I'm so bored. I told everyone. XinJie is talking to me. I feel like eating shepherd's pie! And XinJie asked Lilin who ask XinJie to tell me to search online. Boo.

Everything is about me, me me me me me and ME. I'm a selfish idiot wh is extremely self-centered. And now I'm irritated by Melanie's MSN.

Gosh. The internet closed and I was so worried I lost this post cause i'm so bored.



A month ago...



I went to Amanda'a house today.

Night at the Museum 2, I want to watch! Aiya, life is so boring these days. Study study study. O:





I'm still not used to it, yet I have to. But how long?


Here's to my bestest bitch friend ever!
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Over a decade ago..












&I'm still taller up til today, HAHAHA!





I spent the whole of today slacking. Played mahjong for awhile earlier on and watched 2 episodes of Gossip Girl. I'm waiting for the final episode of Season 2, which is due to be out today?, according to Wiki :\

Super bad mood in the early afternoon. &it's about time I changed the songs. I lost every file that was previously in the computer zomfgxsz. Ohwell.

AMaths is seriously screwed. Maybe I should skip the LC paper tomorrow. The timing is so stupid. I have to install the printer and Bluetooth and whatever elses, &I will not download any games, WILL NOT!

Suck, life is so different.


I'm so sick and tired of everything. I keep telling myself to do so many things, but how many did I succeed in? My standard of English is dropping and everything is screwed up. Fuck. My mind does not have control over my heart, at all.

Everything affects me negatively, every single fucking thing. Much as I tell myself to let it go, forget about it, just ignore it, I can't. I can convince eerone else that I can, but not myself. No matter what I do, what I say, most of it is just a facade. I hide everything. I prefer to keep things bottled up. With backstabbing bitches everywhere, you just can't trust anyone anymore.

Fuck reliability. Fuck the balls out of every single fucking person who said `you can count on me 24/7`. How many of you are there when I really need you? Go fuck yourselves man.

If you think you know me, think again. If you want to say you understand, go fuck yourself.

What's the use of having so many friends if so many are fair-weathered? I'd rather have 1 XinJie than 100 of you fucktards. All you want is fucking favours. From today onwards, NO MORE. I won't help you fucktards with anything AT ALL. Not even if you go on your knees and beg like a faggot.

I'm not agitated, I'm just tired. I'm very, very tired. I never felt so tired before. But how long, and how much can I conceal? I'm not concelaing much by posting this but this is what MY blog is for. If you read this, DON'T TALK ABOUT IT TO ME or I'll make you regret the day you were born. Unless, you're A,K or X. I don't know why I'm feeling so like this. I'm just so urghxzsxzxzs!




&You're not helping any bit by ignoring me like that. It's been how long already.










My life is so boring. My wound is itching. I surprisingly can resist the urge of scratching it.

On a happier note, I went out for dinner with Kiko before going to EHub for a movie but did not watch a movie in the end but came to my house to nua and do stupid things instead.


Suck suck. The applications take so long to download :\

I went to Bugis today and received not one, not two, but three sanitary pads! &Mummy ALMOST bought me the Topshop dress. Dangggggg,

I'm so bored. I'm home alone.

I want to buy myself a camera and a laptop! But everytime I reach $200+ I'll spend it all, on I DON'T KNOW WHAT! Probably tonnes of food and oops! clothes -.-

Supposed to go shower now and go meet Kiko, but Im so lazyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy :\

Okay, time to get your ass off the sofa Samanthaaaaaaaaaaaa!


First it's nothing. Then I feel even more numb. Next it's stinging and then it's itchy?!


I come from a happy family with a fucked up father. How.. ironic?!

Ohmygod I'm glad that I have a wireless keyboard:D. I'm typing as I'm lying on the sofa watching American Dragon: Jake Long

Super drama happened this morning, resulting in a Pikachu drawing on my word and super duper vandalised portions. How, unforgettable?
You'll never look the same again. Not even a new one can replace you, smelly thing. But I'll still love you like no other. :)
&Samantha will never be the same again, never. Because everything has changed. Every single fucking thing.

In a fit of anger, my geography workbook was ripped to shreds S:

Skipped AMaths paper this morning due to personal reasons. Then went for the Physics paper which sucked cause I can't concentrate at all. I KNOW ALL THE ANSWERS but it's all at the tip of my tongue and not coming out. Gave up soon after and started crying heads down.

I wanna go shopping. Retail therapy super duper helps!

But I just spent over a hundred at Forever21 online! Then again, it was quite worth it. HAHAHA. And that pair of TopShop shorts yesterday omfgxzsxzxsxzsxzx! Super duper :B

I'm so hungry, but I can't down anything.




`Even if you cut your hair super short and change everything, I still can recognise your back view.`
`Why?!`
`Because you walk got pattern one!`
Got meh?

I need to start downloading GossipGirl all over again. And all my songs, zz. Think already I'm soooooooooooooo sian! I should just buy the DVD for GG and slowly download the songs I wanna listen to, bit by bit, right? S:

好痛喔.



Omg fuck off lah zz.

Today I was super duper paiseh until my face turned redder than his shirt -.-

&I'm now at XinJie's house using her laptop while distracting her studying HAHHAHAHA. Actually I'm online shopping while waiting for Andy that bitch.

The chemistry paper today was a killer. I think whoever sees my stupid answers will just slap me many times. And tomorrow is AMaths and Physics paper I'm going to be chicken curry.

Can't wait for the Dumpling Day. I like nonya dumplings:D

&THANK YOU MY DEAR FOR LUNCH TODAY. Truth is, I forgot to bring my wallet out also X:

I'm so bored. I got no money to shop already. XinJie is currently studying behind me and I'm talking to her and spinning in the car. Reminds me of when I sat in the conference room talking to the VP and P.

Went to the MPH warehouse sale on Saturday and bought 22 books in all, 2 being Andy's. Then lugged it to airport, had Popeye's for dinner, and bused home. Queuing for payment took double the time I browsed the books.

I got momentarily distracted and now I can't remember what I wanted to blog about.

I have 6 more papers and it's the end of MYEs!


I don't really need a computer, I just need to shop x:

Life has been quite interesting, I've been busy going out and can you believe it, studying! Okay lah, more of going out and having fun, but I still study! The MYEs just started and I'm studying my ass off. Surprising right. Anyway, Andy has been a great bitch, teaching me my subjects although I don't think that I quite deserve it cause it was my decision to start skipping school and everything, but ohwell.

Currently at ahma's house. Finished with my online shopping already and the phone's battery is almost dead too.

Jef sucks and I love KaiJie many many! Hahahahaha.

I'm going to do well in my MYEs!









I miss you badly. Sometimes I miss you like crazy. But what can I do when you're ignoring me like I don't exist. I keep asking myself, what went wrong? You'll never answer that, I'm sure of it. It feels like so long ago, yet it has only been less than 2 months. All I can do is whine and whine, repeating everything over and over, irritating the hell out of everyone.


Exams are super screwed. Like omfg.

samantha t.
too tall for my own shoes

1993
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